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WindowsThe tiger-eyes take their turn;  they chill me to the bone.  He is a grey morning,  unexpected until I saw.  His body became a hollow,  the leaves taken down past autumn.   Begging to be filled, my ideas  became him.  It was a mistake.   For we soon learn the secrets   of the world.   We think we understand,  but in truth understanding has never seen our faces.  All that we can see in the reflecting pool is ourself.  So we melt,  water,  drip.  until the faces blend, colors lost,  and we all become one. Windows
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CrushedMy lungs are on fire with the words I cannot say.  screaming in my mind  Their heads hang like hinges in this barren wasteland.  The end  is not coming  we must wait another hundred years.  Throbbing to my fingers -  There is no use.   
Time is up. Crushed
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Miracle and Blue MoonsCut me up  and paste me down  I have fallen into pieces.  flying pigs  the speed of sound erased  when the morning is quiet  and the faces disappear.  I am scattered across the ground  blowing in the wind  bits of me erased.  However  I am where I'm supposed to be   
Bits of memories  tears Miracle and Blue Moons
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We are names, really.We are names, really.  sometimes faces.  are caught up in the wind  and we fly for ten years.  we fly for less  when we are smart.  but when we fall there  is no way ever up  and the earth folds  into itself, we are caught in  its layers. They  take many at a time,  of us.  The water does not care  if we are kind,  or if we have a family  somewhere in Oz.  We are names, scribbled out  on a piece of stone, a  landmarker, a deathmarker.  Because the water does not  care if we are kind.  and we wash away. We are names, really.
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I lose.

Mon May 25, 2009, 3:53 PM
When I say that "I lose," I mean that I am a loser. I have not made any art in five months. I feel so stupid. This is the first time that I have even logged onto deviantart since Christmas. So, now I am looking at my journal history on the right and I see that I have posted around 5 journals per year, which is quite embarrassing. I have done a lot of old stuff that I would like to put up. There has been a big mixture, and some of it might suck but I don't think that I care.

My year has not gone as I wanted it to. I have gotten D's on my report cards - which is something that has never happened to me since I am a self-proclaimed nerd. I think that I'm just lazy. I want all of this year to be erased so far, I have done nothing productive. I am also currently crazy about this guy who I have talked to... what? I think four or five times. And now summer is here, and I'm still not expecting much of myself.

I'm beginning to think that I will never amount to anything. I had always thought that I was going to be the one in my family to get out there, earn a full scholarship to college and blow the world away. Boy, I was wrong. I like who I am as a person, but I really am nothing special. I have nothing to offer anyone expect that I am different. I'm not enormously talented like all of you on here. I am not exceptionally smart like most of the people that go to my private school. I am not good at talking to guys, I am not super friendly and nice. I am the essence of what it means to be average.

Anyway, after all this random ranting I feel like I am going to go and post some stuff that I will probably regret later. Just so that I can put something up.

I bet no one read this anyway,
Toppie

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~FantasyFreak23:iconFantasyFreak23: May 25, 2009, 5:05:40 PM
Thanks for the fav :)

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~toppie-sfb:icontoppie-sfb: May 25, 2009, 5:12:53 PM
You are very welcome! :thumbsup:

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Deepest seas, to the shallows,
to the heavens above.
We feel through the fog,
to find what we love.
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~yourworldasiseeit:iconyourworldasiseeit: Nov 22, 2008, 4:29:46 PM
You have been featured here: [link]


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your world as I see it.
~toppie-sfb:icontoppie-sfb: Dec 1, 2008, 2:36:40 PM
Oh thank you! I love some of the things that you chose.

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Deepest seas, to the shallows,
to the heavens above.
We feel through the fog,
to find what we love.
- Stephen B. Brown
~yourworldasiseeit:iconyourworldasiseeit: Dec 1, 2008, 6:00:25 PM
Thank you for sharing your gift!

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your world as I see it.
~toppie-sfb:icontoppie-sfb: Jan 9, 2009, 4:11:41 PM
:D Thank you.

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Deepest seas, to the shallows,
to the heavens above.
We feel through the fog,
to find what we love.
- Stephen B. Brown
~donkanonji:icondonkanonji: Nov 18, 2008, 4:34:06 PM
thanks for the fav :)

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~toppie-sfb:icontoppie-sfb: Nov 18, 2008, 4:35:10 PM
Welcome!

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Deepest seas, to the shallows,
to the heavens above.
We feel through the fog,
to find what we love.
- Stephen B. Brown
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